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@ Wednesday, 26. Dec, 2007 – 14:24:45
I don't know why, but my depressive episodes seem to come in cycles. Ten days ago I felt good... I was even starting to look forward to Christmas. Then last Tuesday I started to slip and by Wednesday I was really struggling. What set me off? I've absolutely no idea...
I hate this whole depressive thing and the way it makes me feel. Still enough of the moaning eh? Nobody needs a moaner at Christmas, although they do say it's a time for nuts! 
mycorneroftheworld
Usksider
Pro You're right of course, I have lots to be grateful for. 
And being a nut-case really isn't a problem! 
Arnica
Thinking of you - 2008 must be much better! 
Arnica
ps - thanks for showing us your nuts again
Usksider
Pro Glad you liked my nuts...
normalguy
Hang in there m8 - tomorrow is a new day eh?
Usksider
Pro I'm not done for just yet Norm.
It's a very up and down time of year for MANY people. You're not alone and hey, when YOU feel down at least you don't go nuts enough to get arrested.
Usksider
Pro The trick seems to be remembering the glass is always half-full... however when you're up to your arse in alligators it is sometimes hard to remember your task was to drain the swamp!
what thyroid meds are you on usky??
Usksider
Pro I take levothyroxine sodium Jack... my bloods are done regularly (last about a month ago).
i would be interested in your levels and if you take other meds at the same time...and what time you take them..and if you have a constant sore throat..
Usksider
Pro Currently my thyroxine dose is 150 micrograms Jack. I'm also taking 8mg of perindropril and 60mg of duloxetine daily.
My routine is to take a morning cocktail (usually before 8:00am) and get it over for the day.
I don't have a sore throat, but have suffered from a blocked sinus for the last 8 or 9 years - something that never bothered me before I had thyroid problems and only occurred the winter after I started taking thyroxine.
The duloxetine can cause problems ...i would go back to the endocrinologist and get a full blood work up and they should be able to balance out the drugs...do you use Sinex...that can cause your nasel problems...i know that duloxetine on its own can cause the symptoms you describe as a side effect.
last do you know your TSH,T4 and T3 levels...as there has been alot of talk about what are normal...your TSH wants to be under 5mul.
Usksider
Pro The duloxetine is new to me - I was taking citalapram previously, but that wasn't having the desired effect.
I don't use Sinex, but do utilise eucalyptus oil if things clog up completely... drops on the pillow, etc.
I'll have to ask about T3, T4 levels because I haven't a clue...
thehomelyyear
Pro The next bit is up - this time of year has a built-in mood altering effect - high/low/emotional/anxious. I reckon it does something to all of us. That is not to denigrate the way you are feeling; and these things are often cyclical. I have a friend who becomes depressed around the 2nd trimester of the year (I believe this time is common) When the end of June comes she becomes fine again. Anyway, keep hanging in there and the dawn will come...just as it has before.
Usksider
Pro That's interesting. There doesn't seem to have been a definite pattern to my mood swings... I don't think anyway.
classicrockchick
Pro We nuts should stick together.
If it goes in cycles, then it must get better.
Soon, hopefully
x
Usksider
Pro I'm certainly more upbeat today, despite it being the middle of the night and no sleep. Being able to come here is a great improvement.
Have you tried to chart these cycles? You may find a pattern. This cyclical behaviour may indicate biochemical changes. Charting them and see if they have regular patterns, may help identify if it is, and what mechanism it may be related to.
Usksider
Pro Yes, I started keeping a diary of 'events' earlier in the year. I don't have enough data yet to predict a definite pattern.
so sorry you still keep being bitten by that wretchedness..... It is a fairly crap time of year for it.....All the best Usky and some big huge ((((hugs))) in fact.....
Usksider
Pro You are a doll... thanks Mum.
sorry about the sinister looking eye.....
Usksider
Pro I'll forgive you the odd eye...
isadora101
If you're a nut, then you're one of the sweeter ones Xx
Usksider
Pro A pecan maybe... not a Brazilian though... 
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isadora101
Ah..that's for you to know and only me to imagine
Usksider
Pro Well I wouldn't give it a second thought if I were you. 
tylluanpenry
Pro Usky, I think you're a sugared almond! Just go with the flow - depression is a truly horrible illness and from what I've seen it does tend to strike in cycles. Just take care and remember your friends are here for you! 
Usksider
Pro Sugared almonds... haven't had one of those in years! Thanks Tylluan; you folks here are truly awesome.
Munzly
Just caught up with this posting - so I hope by now the wheel has turned and things are on the up again - if not, As with last time, I'm rooting for you Kiddo.
Usksider
Pro Thanks Mr M; I'm getting there.
Just caught up again.
From one nut to another, keep persevering. You'll suss it out eventually either psychologically or chemically or a mixture of the two.
This new year is going to be a test for me. I've historically deteriorated at the beginning of the year. I'm determined that 2008 is going to be different. I have new goals and things to work towards. I expect I'll have lapses, but I've had them before and I seem to cope better now.
I hope you can get to grips with this wretched condition this year. As always, if you need someone to moan at, I'm here.
GB
Usksider
Pro There have been great improvements in my state over the last few months; you're right GB, a mix of chemical and psychological help is the answer for me. Just need to learn how to catch the deep dips before they get a real grip.
Us nuts need to stick together, so the moan sessions can work both ways.
Fingers crossed you get through the New Year experience with less hassle this time around.
antlady69
Pro I know there's not too much others can do when you (and everyone else) are really down.
So the best I can offer is a huge big HUG *HUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUG*
Hope that helps a tiny bit
Usksider
Pro Those were wonderful hugs.... I feel all cuddly now.
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Well, trying to look at it from a positive point of view, it is at least good that you are not feeling depressed all the time! It must be better to get it in cycles then?
And there is nothing wrong with nuts anyway!
You get well soon!